it never stops.. til I'm dead..

hello,
today is a 6 out of ten.. why.. because I carry secrets.. and I'm sick of it.. and I'm not what some might call self actualized.. I meant to google that.. anyway.. I'm above water because I got a cool poster last night.. and I've been better to myself lately.. I made lasangne and I let myself watch some TV and movies lately for fun.. and I just posted my blog on clubhouse.. I feel good about that..
I still work in changes... I guess I still hate it but the safety aspect is just so nice.. I just have to find something nice and safe now.. not gross and safe.. sigh. I must not dispair though.. life is still a gift.. I better go watch more "six feet under" eh?.. haha I'm so Canadian..

"I love myself today.. not like yesterday."