I hate my life. Yes. Period.

yup.. I've come to realize that I'm just not happy and it's about time I tried to do something about it.. I thought for the first time today that it's ok not to be lathargic.. I really want to stop SARA.. It's eating up my social time and craft/art time and I don't want to feel like I'm 45 already.. fuck it.. I gotta get some things too..

new list of things to do..
(want to have done by January 1st 2006)

1.. Wall hanging(s) made of Thread..
2.. Read all of all of these.. "The Courage to be" "Oryx and Crake" "In the mean time"
3.. Leave Save on Foods for a Job that pays more per hour/per month.
4.. still be with Brendan.